Posts Tagged With: love

where have the single people of my age gone to?!

So, this morning, I was checking out and scrolling down through my YM contacts list. Surprisingly, I found out that I have more than 450+ contacts. Where did everybody come from?! Some contacts I don’t even remember anymore because they sound suspicious…. :|

When I was still in college, I remember that was the time when my YM list started growing. I’ve been adding up user IDs of my blockmates and some friends that we’ve made in Mapua Makati. I scrolled down to that bottom part, where the oldest YM group I created is located, and checked out who were online.

Then something struck me – Everybody in that group, I realized, were either married or in a relationship.

T_T.

Where are the single people of my age?! Hehe. I know you guys are out there. (Pero bat di kayo online? haha)

Anyway, when I attended a dinner recently where my girl friends have been telling me that the ideal age for giving birth is before turning 30. Thank you for scaring me. -_-  But honestly, I really did worry for a while and though some people will agree on that, there is also evidence that people who gave birth (with their first child) after 30 is still okay.

It has been that way recently, sometimes when everybody around you is in a relationship, when you’re with them, feeling mo you’re invading their time together. Not that they intentionally want you to feel that way, probably they just like hanging with you guys, and didn’t know that you feel this way. Depende siguro sa friends.

I’m not saying that I don’t agree with relationships and being all in love… contrary to popular belief, I very much like the feeling of being in love. It’s allowing yourself to be all silly, but you don’t care! No, you don’t care because it makes you happy. You learn a lot together and you learn how to compromise. But lately, most of the people around me that I see have all relationships that are failing. When I was younger, I thought that, you know, worst things that happen in relationships and marriages only happen in movies and novels. But no, infidelity and loss of interest actually happen where you are right now. They’re much more real than I thought.

Maybe this is trying to tell me something.

Maybe this is trying to tell me something.

But still, I’m not letting romance die in me. I know for a  fact that some people, despite the distance, time and differences they are still together and keeping it strong. And ako pa, when I fall in love with you, I dedicated my whole self to you. Rather stupid but when you’re in love, you will see that you lose your balance.

Recently, I have been enjoying the time that every thing in me feels quiet. There’s no longing, no jealous feeling, no worries… and sometimes I just close my eyes and savor that feeling of peace. I have this close guy friend, let’s call him Han Solo – no, he’s not single. We always talk a lot when we can. One day, I was surprised to tell him that “You know, I actually don’t feel anything for anyone. It’s just quiet.” Because after a long time of getting hurt, I suddenly felt this. It was like somebody had calmed the raging waters and I was suddenly pulled me out of the water, then placed on this tiny boat. I was looking quietly around and wondering why the raging has stopped.

During my lamentation times last year, somebody told me before that this day would come – when you would feel that silence in you, and when it happens you have to submerge yourself in it… while you can. Because soon, you will find yourself filled again with feelings.

So if you are reading this and you’re single, *apir*. Let’s enjoy this feeling.

If you are in a relationship and you want to stay in it,  then you pretty much know what you have to do. Making relationships last is done by people who you and I admire and it’s possible.

If you are in a  relationship and you’re miserable in it… then what’s wrong with you?! You need to start *waves jedi hand* rethinking life.

But still it made me think. Is getting married and having a family the only direction where we COULD go as we grow up … in order to be happy? I mean, I’m 25, and I still haven’t done a lot of things na I want to do. I want to travel, I want to be this and be that … and when you do start to have a family, it’s like having a tattoo on your face! It’s a full time job, without over time pay – forever.

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a new member of the family!

It wass 4:40PM and I want to go home para malaro ko na si Max – my 3 month old golden retriever.

We got him nung Sunday from a good family in Mapayapa Village in Quezon City. It was their first time to breed and sell a Golden Retriever.

It was around 4PM nung Sunday when Ate and I decided to go to QC and get the puppy. It was little late and I was also rushing to get back to Pasay City for the Adam Lambert concert. We didn’t know how to navigate around Quezon City yet, so I mainly depended on Google maps. Fortunately, I saw a possible route to the Mapayapa village. It was going through Luzon Avenue. So, I thought it was the best decision.

NOT!

O__O. I would NOT recommend Luzon Ave to anybody, especially if you have a car and you’re driving with your sister. The whole Luzon ave was … I don’t know, I could not even compare it to Edang Street in Pasay City. The road was very narrow, there were tricycles everywhere with tricycle drivers who are extremely rude, the wet and dry market was located throughout the whole road. It also seemed like cars were not common on that road because the pedestrians seem to be walking in the middle of the effing road!! I mean for crying out loud woman! TABI! So ayun, do not pass Luzon Ave if you can.

When we got there, we saw the owners/sellers (Aldwin and Cythia) of Almond (Max’s first name) and the place where Max spent his first three months. I saw his mother, who was already a full grown Golden Retriever, about 1 year and 5 months old. Ang laki! T__T Max is gonna be bigger than her. I also saw Max’s sister. :] aww.

Before we left, I asked if they could provide a towel that would be brushed against the fur of Max’s mother. So that at night, when Max goes to sleep, he won’t feel too lonely.

When we were about to leave, I was carrying Max. Aldwin and Cythia were saying goodbyes and it was sad to see them tearing up a little. Aldwin and Cynthia were still giving me some advice on how to care for Max, his allergies, his habits. Then they were talking to Max as if he were a real baby. It was really sad and touching. :(

I told Cythia that we will be friends in facebook, and I promise to keep them updated of how Max is doing. :]

Max is at home right now, probably playing or sleeping… or peeing somewhere. Hehe. I can’t wait to come home so that we could play again.

Max at 3 months old. :) Full of love and energy.

 

 

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